What a day... ...

Weeks, and weeks... I have not seen you in such a long time, yet, I still came here and visit you, to share what I had gone through... ... Do you miss me...? ^^

What a day, what a day, I had said this to myself since the music training camp started until now, it's been a rough and tough process in the preparation of the concert. Yet, it seems that I still find it worth for me to do it, and to challenge it.

What a day, what a day, not only stress for the concert came up, but also other things, which always distract my mind, the people around me, started to make me feel a bit of "this isn't me anymore", "why should I be here for it?", it started to make me think negatively in certain ways, is it because of what I had gone through, or is it because I'm sick and tired of everything...? or is it because I was just too tired to give a damn about it...? I just don't know... ...

What a day, what a day, tiredness began to fill me each and everyday. Each day, as I feel the package of tiredness begins to fill in, my mind becoming fade, and blur every single day, unaware of what am I doing, unconsciously doing things without thinking about it, what the heck am I thinking of... ...?

What a day, what a day... ... I started to lose my mind, and my patience began to fade away, and my temper started to haunt me, can I still control myself to be so rational, or optimistic...? Can I? Can I...? Sometimes I just want to spit it out, but who shall I say to...? Who shall I face to release all those inside of me...? As I know, my heart says..."no, you can't do that, you need to train back yourself with patience and with considerable mind, you must know you are not the only one going through all these, your friends too... face the same problem... can you help them too...?"

What a day, what a day... ... but as single each day passed by, I'm still grateful, as a single day, will increase my relationship with my friends, will make me aware of the attitude that I am having, make me think more and consider my friend's advise, and make me feel that, it's great to be here too, and grateful to have this concert going on... ...